The Important Things to Remember with Regards to Grief and Depression::
-Sleep, eat, keep in contact with friends, use telephone extensively, or whatever works, as temporary anti-depressant.
-It's okay and understandable to be depressed. Sleep whenever, eat whatever whenever, and do the best to keep to whatever resembles a normal routine.
-Don't beat yourself up if you aren't sufficiently cheerful to the world around you. The world can, temporarily, go hang.
-Try not to be inconsiderate of others who may be in a similar state to yourself. That said, most people are more patient than they might seem to be at first glance.
-Staying in a cocoon of safety is fine for a while, but get out and interact occasionally...you may be pissed off at others apparent shallowness, but try not to get into any knock-down drag-out fights, either physical or verbal.
(as you might have guessed by now, I've dealt with this several dozen times before, although not usually twice in the same month.)
I want someone to bring me chinese food, hug me a lot, make sure I get into and out of the bubblebath safely, and change the sheets on the bed. This, of course, is one of many things that won't happen, but I still want it to. :P Washing my new CPAP mask and such would be nice, but not required. Replacing most of my body with something that functions normally would be wonderful, but I know we don't have that technology as of yet.
My depression and anxiety have gotten bad enough that I nearly gave myself a panic attack over when I should go to the bathroom. This is Not Good (tm) OTOH, I did talk to the doc on the night shift at the primary doc's office, she said I could just up the dose of my trazodone slightly and see if it helped. At any rate, it's a start. I'm jumpy, traumatized, and feeling terrifically ugly both in mind and body.
This too, is normal, unfortunately. I'll get over it eventually. (Well, except for the food craving and the hug craving. I nearly always have those. ;-) My left hand and wrist now hate me even more viciously...so I'm going to watch something on the computer and then go THUNK. Probably be up a bit longer, and certainly interruptable.